It’s December 2025, and I’m sitting in stillness — a kind of stillness I once feared — as a completely different woman than the one who entered this year. The change wasn’t loud or flashy. It didn’t come through bigger goals, new offers, or social media breakthroughs. It came through letting go. Of plans. Of pressure. Of the version of me who had been performing for far too long.

Back in February, my body gave me no choice. I got sick — the kind of sick I hadn’t experienced in years. I had no energy, no voice, no bandwidth. At first, I tried to fight it, to strategize my way through the fatigue. But when I surrendered, I realized this wasn’t just about recovering from an illness. It was about healing a long-held pattern of overextension. A pattern of showing up empty. A pattern of being available to everyone else before being available to myself.

So I did something radical in our always-online world: I deleted every social media app from my phone. Not for detox optics. Not to create content about my “break.” I deleted them because I needed to stop documenting my life and start actually living it again — quietly, sacredly, and on my own terms.

The Burnout I Didn't See Coming

It wasn’t until I stopped working that I realized how profoundly burnt out I was. Not just physically — but emotionally, spiritually, energetically. I had been running my successful coaching business for years. I had launched programs, led women through transformations, spoken about embodiment and truth… but I wasn’t giving myself the very medicine I offered to others.

So I paused everything. I let it all go. No launches. No content schedule. No pressure to be seen, valuable, or helpful. I went back to freelancing — something that demanded less of my soul so I could refill what had been slowly draining. I gave myself space to simply be. I mothered my son without thinking about how to capture it. I woke up without needing to perform. I sat in the mundane and let it hold me.

And for the first time in years, I met myself again — not as a brand, not as a coach, not as an identity. Just as a woman who was ready to listen.

The Season of Unknowing

For several months, I didn’t touch my Gene Keys. I didn’t check the transits. I didn’t open my Human Design chart. Not because I didn’t believe in them anymore — but because I needed to forget who I was supposed to be in order to remember who I actually am.

I needed to stop intellectualizing my healing and start living it — in the mess, the silence, the cycles, and the uncertainty. I let the divine guide me not through answers, but through stillness. I allowed myself to be a student of life again. Not as content. Not as curriculum. Just as experience.

And that void — the scary one most people try to avoid — became the most fertile ground for rebirth. It stripped away the noise so that the next version of me could rise from truth, not trend.

In Hindsight, I See Why It All Had to Happen

Looking back now, it all makes sense. What felt like collapse was sacred correction. Saturn in Pisces squaring my natal Saturn wasn’t just an astrological transit. It was a rite of passage. A soul-level audit. A dismantling of the old scaffolding of identity so that something more sustainable could be born.

Saturn didn’t ask me to do more. It asked me to get honest. Was I living in alignment with my own truth? Or was I still subtly performing the version of me I thought people wanted?

This wasn’t punishment — it was grace. Saturn was reminding me that sustainability isn’t about systems. It’s about soul congruence. And from that breakdown, I began to sense the whisper of what was coming next: my North Node in Pisces in the 9th House. Suddenly, the pull toward deeper spiritual truth, surrender, and expansion made perfect sense.

Pisces is the ocean. The 9th house is the path of wisdom. Together, they pointed me toward a business and life that would no longer be built on metrics — but on meaning.

When the Calling Came Back

It wasn’t until November that the first creative spark returned — but it felt different this time. It wasn’t a pressure to build. It was an invitation to begin again.

And for the first time, I didn’t act out of urgency. I didn’t reach for strategy. I didn’t ask my chart what to do. I waited. I listened for my own frequency — and when she finally spoke, she spoke in stories. In fiction ideas. In vision. She whispered, create a platform… a place where women come to remember.

She showed me that my business, my visibility, my leadership were not meant to fit someone else’s mold. They were meant to feel like home to me. INTO GOLD was born not as a launch plan, but as a living expression of the woman I had become in the quiet.

The Redefinition of Success

This year forced me to finally embody what I had been teaching for years: that success isn’t about visibility, virality, or volume. It’s about wholeness. About alignment. About the nervous system feeling safe inside of your own truth.

Success for me now looks like present mornings with my son. It looks like writing without a content strategy. It looks like Pinterest boards filled with depth, not dopamine. It looks like work that arises from listening, not launching.

My definition of success is no longer external — it’s energetic. It’s no longer about how I’m perceived — it’s about how I feel.

And from this place of presence, the next urge emerged: INTO GOLD. Not a brand. A sanctuary. A home for women walking the path of identity evolution, nervous system healing, and soul-aligned business.

This Is Where My New Chapter Begins

I’ve made peace with the fact that Instagram is not my home. I don’t need to “keep up.” I need to slow down. To root in. Long-form writing is my medicine. Pinterest is my playground. Resonance — not reach — is my metric of alignment.

This is what my inner truth reminds me of every day: You’re not here for quick wins. You’re here for legacy built on truth. You’re here to build something so deeply rooted in who you are, it cannot be shaken by the algorithm or the market. Something that holds you as much as it holds others.

I’m not chasing relevance anymore. I’m building a world. One that mirrors the frequency of women who are no longer willing to perform — but who are devoted to becoming.

Everything You Need Is Already Within You

I’ve said this before — but this year, I finally learned it in my bones.

You are not behind.
You are not broken.
You are not missing the secret.

If you’re tired, rest.
If you’re questioning everything, listen.
If you’re in the void, trust.

Because that void? It might be the very place your next era is being born.

So if you’re ready to journey deeper — to walk the spiral path of shadow, remembrance, and soulful becoming — I invite you into my world:

• Explore the INTO GOLD Magazine

• Sign up for the free Soul Signal Starter Course

This is not the end. This is your beginning.
And it’s more golden than you can imagine.